Thursday, July 19, 2007

Missing Mei

I don't know about anyone else in the adoption community, but there are some days that I ache from missing my daughter. Yesterday was one of those days. I woke up with her on my mind and I thought of her all day long. Some of you may do this on a daily basis, but with three children already, I tend to put Mei in the back of my mind. I think it really is a coping machanism because if I woke up every morning feeling like yesterday, I don't think I could make it. I know my family would suffer. But what I try to do is pray for her on days like that. I pray for her safety. I pray for her caretakers. I pray for her birth parents. I pray that the Lord will give her dreams of us so she will know us when we get her. When I pray into my worries and my aching, it eases the pain. I know we are so close to seeing her beautiful face. She just sometimes feels so very far away. And although we've never met, she is already apart of our lives. And we miss her not being here with us.

1 comment:

prechrswife said...

I do understand. I was there at this time last year, and we hadn't waited nearly as long. We are looking forward to seeing those pictures of Mei when they come, and to meeting her when she joins your family. God's timing is perfect, but that isn't always what we want to hear when the wait is at its toughest. (((((Hugs))))) and prayers... (And feel free to vent anytime.)